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2010-11-17T01:23:00.000+08:00

I guess this pictures explain it all.

Life is pretty nice to me.

Its fufilling work and home sweet home almost everyday.

But i've been wrking so hard that it makes me wonder what is my goals in life?

And do i wanna do the same old thing everyday?

But to be frank, i might be too harsh on myself.

Maybe what i need is more time to grow in my job.

All work but no fun makes me a boring girl.

2010-08-18T22:38:00.003+08:00

Recently i was going through quite alot of old friends facebook and blog. (if they still treat me as friends though)

I realise everyone changes alot. whether its for the better or for the worse.

But no matter what, i still miss the times we had together and i know its all i have done wrong to make them distance away from me.

But den again, im leading a happy life so i guess i should be more satisfied den them because im more blessed?

Looking back,

Be it career, studies or love,

I made wrong decision,

But i know my destination will still be the same,

Although i took longer time,

But im glad i went through alot of good and bad.

It the process that counts.

2010-04-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

Was darn bored and went looking through the blog post i posted since the start of this blog.

and i realise i talk in the most childish way i could think of. GROSS!

my thinking, way of expressing is all childish.

im glad i've grown up.

And i realise i had been always unhappy in the past because i think too much and care too much.

Im alot happier now cos the ppl around me all love me to death. literally.

And im more easily contented?

till again, xoxo.

2010-04-14T22:50:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging for a month exactly.

no motivations, cos i know no one reads but still i have to write something so that when i read back, i know i have done something meaningful or at least i haven't done anything wrong.

School is finishing and im struggling with my last module.

Last module is communications and is the only module i got A+. ( loves the lecturer to MAX )

Guess after finishing my school i gotta start working already.

But in a industry which i have no other choice to work in.

Been feeling insecure about myself lately. i think too much gossipgirls makes me seem minor.

i know this posts is all random ranting which have absolute no connections to each other.

Just wanna fill this space that all.

xoxo.

2010-03-13T01:45:00.002+08:00

This is a boring entry. But its something important.

For the past 2 years i wasn't able to read properly.

I lost interest in the first chapters for every books i bought.

That freaks me out abit because i like reading alot.

Any genre, from biography to romance to sci-fi.

I could get absorb in a book for a long time and and picture every scene the story is trying to portray.

For the past 2 years, i tried buying all different kinds of books from bookstores.

From the hot-seller to books that people seldom read.

I was trying to find my interest back.

I was scared, literally because books is the only thing that distract me from reality and drag me off to another dimensions.

I don't wanna lose the reading part of me.

After struggling for 2 years i gave up. totally.

I went to change my interest to youtube and pps movies.

Movies did take my mind to another dimensions as well, but its different.

The feeling is not lasting.

Den i thought, "why couldn't i combine movies and books together."

So i went to the bookstores and bought some books which i have already watch the movie before.

That definitely help me get started again.

I was able to focus on the books although i already know what happening.

I was craving for all the details that the movies didn't shows.

It kept me going.

So after i finish the books, i bought books that didn't have movies screening.

And my focus got better.

And now im back to reading. my favourite thing to do on earth.

Thank god.

2010-03-01T01:44:00.001+08:00

School is starting.

And im totally freaking out.

Too many things, too little time. :(

More time please.

2010-02-19T05:28:00.003+08:00

The world is full of colorful and beautiful things and yet many people took all this pretty things for granted.

Imagine a world without trees, water, sun.

Imagine a world without pretty clothes, shoes, bags.

Down to the more simplest things like delicious food, sweets, chocolate.

If everything is as wonderful as i look, i dont see the point of not living your life to the fullest!

2010-02-16T23:26:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year was disastrous this year.

Its was packed full of stuff and i dont even think i have enough sleep at all.

Everything passed too fast and 3 days is gone lidat. yeap! just lidat...

I seriously dont understand the hoo-haa of chinese new year when all the buzz happen during the first 1-2days and everything is gone.

Feel so empty to buzz over CNY la. tsk!

2010-02-14T01:04:00.002+08:00

Its Valentines day and Chinese new year again of the year.

But this year, they happened to fall on the same day.

To me not much different..

Valentines day is an over commercialised day.

But i still appreciate this day seeing young couple walking hand in hand carry bouquet of flowers certainly cheer me up a little.

Chinese new year is an overrated festivals.

I hate this day to the max. Seeing arrogant relatives, being fake that i enjoy all those stuff.

I dislike putting on fake smiles for people who deosnt deserve them. Makes me feel YUCKS~

Its another day pass.

Happy Valentine's Day to all~

2010-02-11T18:39:00.002+08:00

I made a very weird and bizzare dream yesterday.

I did not bothered to remember the dreams.

But when i woke up, i was real happy.

Den i started thinking, "why am i so happy?"

Den i realise i mistook the dream i had for reality.

FML. Its was someone whom i have let down in the past.

I dont even dare to face him now cos im leading a better life.

But i knew he tried his best to give me his all.

In the dreams, he told me that everything that has happened in the past is not important anymore.

He just wanna spend his moment right now, right here with me.

I woke up feeling all sleepy-headed.

But i realise... Its all a ... DREAM.

2010-02-08T23:29:00.002+08:00

Birthdays become more like pitstops, markings which highlight each different juncture of your life at constant intervals and which tell you to stop for a while to have a rethink.

Birthdays become more like yardsticks; yardsticks to measure love, value, maturity, intelligence, wisdom, success, achievements, accomplishments, dreams, and importance of the people around you.

2010-01-28T18:27:00.001+08:00

Perhaps if its all real and i dont need to wake up.

I want to be happy and worry-free.

But waking up from dreams brings me back to reality.

And i realise how vulnerable i am.

2010-01-21T20:24:00.002+08:00

Muhaha. Did you guys know the fact i alway do direct translations?

For example, people mountain people sea, angry die me. =x

Apparently, this supermarket has a higher sense of direct translation than me. :)

apparently, accident do happen sometimes. :) LOL

2010-01-20T23:51:00.001+08:00

If i tell you nothing can make me happy, would you believe?

If i tell you i lost my goal, would you believe?

If i tell you nothing is important to me, would you believe me?

I lost all my motivations, goals/dreams, reasons for living.

I need to find back my momentum.

I need to be motivated. :)

2010-01-19T21:15:00.001+08:00

Today was a very memorable day.

Not for something happy. But something devastating.

I was rejected from marinabaysands casino because i couldn't get the license from CRA.

It was because of something bad that i used to do, my tattoo??

I don't know. They never explain.

All they do is send me an email saying i was rejected.

All my hopes to turn better and have a bright future is all crashed in this email.

The world felt as if it fall on me.

My road became so dark that i could no longer walk anymore.

What should i do?

I studied casino management because this is my dream.

Now that i could no longer work in this industry.

I don't know what else am i supposed to do.

2010-01-18T01:56:00.002+08:00

为什么连想念都会这么难?

没人了解我.

大家只会对我说 " 很快就过去".

我讨厌看到你受委屈.

我讨厌看到你被占便宜.

我讨厌看到你开心.

而我更讨厌看到你伤心.

Its so contradicting that i could literally feel my heart tearing apart.

我要你过得快乐, 可是我嫉妒你比我快乐.

我不想你伤心, 因为我不忍心看见你的眼泪.

好辛苦, 觉得心好像被撕裂.

我以为没有你我回过的好好的.

我以为地球会继续转动,

太阳会继续升起,

水会继续流动.

可是, 我现在的生活是绕着你转动.

世界突然变的黑白.

2010-01-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

Was watching this show the other day.

Just finish it 2 days ago.

It talking about the fame, behind-the-scenes, drugs for entertainment industry.

There was this lady who would do anything to get her consecutive actress of the year awards.

She did alot of sinful things, killing people to ensure her 1st place in the industry.

Last straw, she tried to kill the girl who has very high chance to win the awards but yet, she fall off the rooftop.

And when they announce the winner, its HER!

But she has became bedridden and could no longer film anymore nice shows and her award to her is pretty useless.

It make me start to think.

What the point of being so competitive and sacrifice many people for something you want.

Is it really worth it in the end?

I see people quarreling every other day.

I dont understand what is the hoohaa!

Even if u win, SO!?

Just a penny for the thought cos i got nothing to blog recently.

2010-01-02T01:26:00.002+08:00

Its 2010 and 1 day has passed.

I didnt accomplish anything on this day except to nua whole day and think of my plans for my future.

Future looks bright enough and im brave enough to walk each steps with grace and confident.

Nothing seems too difficult.

I even manage to go back to study. :)

Life has been tolerant to me.

It has gave me several chances to make it right.

Im so glad because not many people have the oppotunities to be in my shoes today after what i have been through.

Im thankful for my family.
Although i did not tell them.

But deeo down, they forgive alot of wrong things that i have done.

And gave me chances again and again for me to be what they expect although i have failed them again and again.

If its not for them, i wouldnt be where i am today.

I would jolly well be still loitering on the streets like some other juveniles.

I would cherish every chances that comes by because i believe.....

Chances and opportunity are for those who are ready. :)

Cheers guy. Have a good year ahead.

Cos i know i will be enjoying 2010. :)

2009-12-27T03:11:00.005+08:00

Finally christmas is over.

All the anticipation and preparation is all worth it.

Its a great one this year.

Spend it with a bunch of cool and great friends.

Steamboat, shopping, gifts exchange, mahjong and movie all in 2 days.

Im amazed by what i have gone through this year.

I went back to studies and finishing it soon.

Am so glad i didnt gave up the studies halfway through this time.

Am so glad that i have great friends encouraging me and pulling me out of the dark pitch future.

Am glad that i grew up to be a better person.

Looking back this year.

I've grown so much that im so proud of myself.

I learnt to take responsibility of myself and things i needa do.

I just hope sometimes that my family could be as proud of me as i feel.

But i guess they need more times to see the changes in me.

But im glad that we are still as close as ever.

I thank everyone for making my 2009 a fulfilling year.

Everyone that has been in my life. Or pass by my life.

You people makes a difference to me.

Be it good or bad.

Because i believe everything and everyone i know happens for a reason.

Love you guys.

2009-12-22T22:31:00.002+08:00

Its another merry festival again.

I still remember very clearly who i spend my last year christmas and new year.

But the difference is those bunch of friends are no longer by my side.

Its a whole new bunch of great friends.

But looking back, i missed those friends too.

A year indeed passes very fast.

Alot of things have happened but they feel like they all happened yesterday.

The memory is so vivid.

My wishes for 2010 would definitely be staying great friends with the bunch im hanging out with.

Although friends might come and go but i know this bunch of friends wont leave me alone. :)

Im blessed to be spending christmas and new year with a bunch of joyful friends. :)

2009-12-07T19:56:00.002+08:00

Life has been busy and hectic this few weeks.

But when i settle down and ponder,

I realize I've been busy for nothing.

All that is left in my heart is coldness and emptiness.

I guess its because you found a job with a super irregular timing.
And when u are working, i cant contact you at all.

I can blame no one.

Isn't this what i want?

You with a job.

Yes! You did gotten a job but with irregular work timings.

I guess the world cant be perfect.

I've been holding on because i know i will regret.

But i realize if i'm not as important to you anymore, it all futile.

2009-11-19T23:12:00.002+08:00

Crowded streets, bustling traffic, beautiful lighting.

There is a lonely silhouette, waiting for someone to realise that she needed guidance.

She need someone to show her the light to the future.

Everyone is too caught up with their own tiny box, thinking that the world revolve around them.

Nobody bothers to even ask the lonely silhouette whether she need companion or help?

Lonely silhouette is slipping away into the darkness.

who would have known i'll be lonely?

who would have known i need someone to guide me?

2009-11-16T22:25:00.002+08:00

i kept telling myself its okay. everything is gonna be alright.

i kept lying to myself that i just need more time to get used to you.

i knew nothing is going to change.

but why am i so useless to keep hoping for miracles?

2009-11-06T22:49:00.001+08:00

i feel like im going into depression mode soon.

haven been crying over the slightest things.

haiz. i dont like the feeling of my mood going on a rollercoaster.

2009-10-30T00:00:00.002+08:00

im not neglecting my blog.

its just that i dont know how to pen down my thoughts.

they are in a big whirlwind and its too messy for me to even sort them out less talking about pen them down.

but now what im trying to do is sit down and tried to think back the all the things that happen.

i realise im the one who caused all the misery in myself.

i made the choice myself.

not saying im making the wrong choices or doing the wrong thing.

more of regretting everything.

"if only" is the words i always said.

but its pretty useless to say "if only" now.

cos whoever know what im talking is laughing at me now.

but im not afraid to tell you that i really have alot to tell you.

its just too many things that is happening to me.

how i wish there is someone who is willing to sit quietly by my side

and listen to whatever im saying.

i know this blog entry is making those who dont like emo post dislike me more.

LOL. but i dont care.

at least i think no one will read my blog anyway after stopping for so long.

if u ever read my blog. please tell me. so that i can thank you for concerning about me. :)

2009-10-24T22:56:00.002+08:00

im still alive.

sorry guys.

im busy.

im tired.

2009-10-07T22:27:00.001+08:00

im alright guys.

im sorry for the lack of updates but ....

exams is coming up tml.

so im busy mugging and life haven't been easy for me to see you come and go.

and the same person whom im so close to seem so far and beyond reach.

i need some times to calm down.

2009-09-27T02:02:00.002+08:00

went to town to had luch at LJS today.
look at the retarded heart shape stobelly made for me using chilli sauce.
look so gross and disgusting la.

Anyway, went to town cos stobelly had a birthday event there as the emcee/DJ.
so i went along to help.

wasn't familiar with all this freaking buttons in the first place.
cos i needa help place music.
den finally got it in the end. not much problem.
dont think i very "cleber" okay?!
cos i only one row of the buttons.
i left the rest untouched for the safety of the sound systems.
dont wanna spoil it.

the event overall was fun.
all youngsters ma.
tired day.

wish i had someone around for me to lie on and pour my sorrows to.

2009-09-24T20:57:00.000+08:00

i nearly died cos of my food poisoning or gastric flu.

nabei.

the cramp in the stomach and the vomiting.

and the laosai-ing makes me feel weak.

but i dont seem to get any slimmer.

THIS IS SO UNFAIR!

im still lidat. wait till i get well.

den i'll come back for a proper blog post.

2009-09-22T22:55:00.003+08:00

its a long overdue posts again.
see piglet, tigger and eeyore looks like they are having threesome lo.
animals make love by stacking on top of each other de.
haha. see i got watch documentary show de wor.
this posts is going to consist of a few days summarise into a few words.
im lazy i know.

last sunday went fareast, ION and PS with sis.
and i saw this I LOVE STAGE shop at FEP.
actually i like stage thingy alot but hor, i dont dare to go into the shop and see.
cos look like super high class de.
later i go in den saw lee teng, den i dont know what to do lo.
so freaking awkward. zzz!
(i think too much)

den we went ION just for the above tako.
i forgot the shop name.
think is something GINTAKO.
super nice and super different from those normal tako outside.
its outside is crispy and inside is steaming hot and soft.
the squid is huge and chewy inside.
OMG! while typing im craving for it already.
but its only located at ION. so troublesome!!!
GINTAKO. please open more branchs!!!

lastly, i will end off the posts with PEINI.
super cute right her? LOL.
she is only 1 month. so tiny and fragile while i carry.
like any moment will break de.
feel like those agar agar or jelly you guys eat outside de. LOL.

2009-09-21T01:26:00.001+08:00

my life is undergoing rollercoaster now.

most of the times, its is below average mood.

sometimes, hang ard with friends den will be happy.

but at the end of the whole day, i still empty and unhappy inside.

i see friends around me experiencing the same things.

i feel for them.

cos i feel lousy everyday.

nothing to look forward to except schools.

2009-09-17T00:11:00.003+08:00

its my freaking birthday.
and my sis bought me a birthday present and i dont expect her to buy me anything.
LOL. its that bad u guys saw above.
we saw that bags when we went went shopping den i super like.
didnt expect her to go back and buy it.

and this is a gift also.

and you would ask me why is there no winnie the pooh.

cos i DISLIKE winnie the pooh. LOL.

and finally all this photos is taken with my LG crystal phone.

quality damn good. :)

im a happy girl today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

2009-09-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

mummy and daddy bought LG crystal phone for my birthday
im super happy with the uber chio phone
but i realise that the phone is too clever for me.
i dont know how to use.
shall slowly figure out.

tml going to sign contract with MBS already.
excited me.

2009-09-12T12:35:00.001+08:00

im a happy girl now with a confirm job in marinabaysands.
im going to sign the contract on next wednesday.
WEE!

2009-09-10T21:39:00.002+08:00

im a happy girl cos i was being treated hot pot culture.
LOL. was super full. :)
and i managed to walked around town and went to the COMEX fair.
im a happy girl. :)
MUACKS myself. :)

2009-09-10T02:18:00.001+08:00

argh!! im going mad le la.

school is really taxing. cos i dont understand MIS at all.

and im having my practical assessment by the lecturer himself this friday.

i would be the first batch in class to take the assessment.

with so many things to do and finish, the irony is i cant sleep!!

what a ass body clock i have.

tired when im going to school den awake when i finish school.

tsktsk.. AHHH!!

okay. i feel better now after i finish ranting. :)

2009-09-09T03:58:00.002+08:00

Actually dont feel like blogging.
but today is a nice date. 090909.
my fav numbers is 9 so im being forced by myself to leave a blog post today. LOL.
cant sleep. very irritating.
i dont want it to become a habit to take sleeping pills la.
budden i got class in the morning now lo.
HAIZ. how?!

oh btw, the freaking management information systems, i dont understand a single words.
im in sucha deep shit la. :(

back to my hk drama. :)

2009-09-08T01:59:00.002+08:00

had my first lesson of management information systems (MIS)

freaking bored la this module.

how can a person like me who doesnt know how to differentiate between hardware and software learn MIS? (i finally know how to differentiate today! :))

my hand skills and card games assessment is coming soon.

just hope that i smoothly one time pass can le.

not like my classmates needa take re-exam.

life is bored but simple. i like the simplicity

it made me sees things in a different perspective.

i didnt know the road home has so many mimosa.

i only made me realise if i start to cherish every single things, the world would be more beautiful. :)

2009-09-07T01:52:00.001+08:00

tml is the start of a new module.
school times is passing so fast.
but im glad i have nice classmates and friends in there.

just wanna say.
im glad i let go cos i can finally see your smile. ELF.

2009-09-04T02:44:00.002+08:00

Finally i see my weekends coming.

this week has been super busy with school, exams, interview and a few things here and there.

super hectic and tiring de.

but at least it made me think lesser and happier i guess? :)

now im just gonna plan my future properly.

cos seriously, i cant see my future yet.

i dont know what i want to do.

i dont know what can i do.

i dont know my future.

so yeah. im gonna sit down and think hard what i want.

2009-09-02T23:24:00.002+08:00

its the same old me again.
had a hectic week.
almost dying of fatigue and sickness.

sometimes i dont know whether wanna blog anot.
cos i feel that i dont wanna post all my feeling in the cyber space.
budden again, im all alone so i have to confide in someone or rather something right??
haha. so freaking contradicting.
but whatever. :)

2009-09-01T00:55:00.003+08:00

when i was a little girl around 13 or 14.

i remember one incident.

i was on the bus home after school quarrelling with my friends through sms because i wasn't feeling well and i can't accompany her to go shopping so she got mad at me.

i was down with a super high fever that day and was hoping to go home fast.

den a stranger, a guy in a white shirt and black pants i remembered vividly.

he tapped on my shoulder den showed me his handphone with a text message written

" take care of yourself. you look really sick. drink more water."

for that split seconds i was shocked.

i mean how can a stranger care so much about you when the dearest ones around me doesn't even bothered.

that stranger is like an angel to me.

i don't remember his looks anymore.

but whenever i took bus home and went through the same route.

i always keep my eyes peeled for someone wearing the same white shirt and black pants.

hoping that i can find him again to thanks him for the warmth he gave me.

and for letting me know how i should be treated and how should i treat other ppl. :)

2009-08-28T02:15:00.002+08:00

i decided to start anew.

all over again.

forget about all the sadness and unhappiness.

and just not care about anything.

act blur live longer - my motto!

alot of things is not for us to be so stubborn about.

if its going to happen then it will happen.

ifs its not den why bother to do so much cos it will only portray myself as someone who doesnt haven integrity.

right now, i just wanna concentrate on my studies, work and future career building.

other things can wait.

cos if im not on your first of the list den you are not going to be mine as well.

i learn this logic from a very special friend of mine.

whatever i receive from you, im going to give you back the same as well.

2009-08-27T01:09:00.003+08:00

i dont want to hide the fact that im not happy with my life now.
i dont want to act happy and strong anymore.
(those who hate me, gloat and be happy for all you want.)

my life is stagnant.
i cant work cos i study the whole freaking day.
and since i cant work, i got no extra cash for food, cigs or even a simple drinks sometimes.

i dont like the classmates i have.
some is so fucking fake.
but they can be fake for all they want cos i just dont talk to loser.

dont think i acting pitiful here.
cos if you dont like what you see den get lost.
this is a place for me to vent my frustration.

2009-08-26T02:59:00.004+08:00

would you be there if i needed you?

would you at least look at me if i walked past you?

would you still think of me once in awhile when you go to places or do things that we did together?

would you remember all my diet habits when i do remember yours?

would you still bother to at least say hi to me?

would you remember that i once appear in your life?

i only want the chance to walk beside you once again.

but it seems like i have gave the chance away with my both hands.

and i will never get it back again.

2009-08-25T21:20:00.006+08:00

its the frustrating feeling that im having that makes me freaking DULAN!

if you are taking me for granted den dont deny.

if you are just using me to take up or waste ur time cos u simply have too much time den fuck off.

i dont need a friend like you in my life.

its sad that when you are fucking sad,

there is no one for you to turn to at all. no one..

有人对我说过，如果伤口痛的太厲害，

只要用力呼气就不会那么痛，骗人的。

你们不要我，是我无法逼自己改变。

同时也是因为我的固执，

而在自己的身上留下了一个又一个的伤痛。

每晚，每一个晚上都会痛醒我。

太累了，我真的无法再痛下去，

我只是天地之间的一粒尘埃。我的痛何足挂齿呢？

2009-08-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

( click to enlarge and read article )

my dear lecturer and school was feature as headlines on the last sat weekend TODAY.
LOL. thanks the reporter for taking sucha nice pictures of angelito. :)
and trust me. He looks as nice as the pics above. LOL.

school today was fun.
i think im finishing my basic hand skills and club games class soon.
BOOHOO! no more practical class to gimme the motivation to study.
practical lessons is fun de lo.
the time pass super fast and we are playing while having lesson. how good?!

2009-08-23T22:13:00.002+08:00

Its family day again. nothing much. will let the pic do the talking.
and hor, normally people is before food den take the pic of the food right?
i'll be special and take it when i finish everything. LOL.
actually is im sucha glutton that i forget to take pic whenever my food comes so...

2009-08-22T20:51:00.001+08:00

I shall not ponder upon the past which will boil me n fume me.
I'm not going to bring it over to the future becos it will hold me back from a victorious life.
Give thanks for these set backs.

2009-08-22T18:35:00.004+08:00

I know the only thing constant is changes.
But i really dont understand how human beings can change so fast from a kindhearted human to a sneaky person.
Provided that the kindhearted humans i have seen is FAKE.
Then i have nothing to say.
They can promise you heaven and sky when u are good with them.
They can say that our friendship would never change no matter whether you are with him anot.
But.. No matter how hard i try aftermath, its still futile.

Alot of times, im disappointed in human beings like how you guys are disappointed in me. maybe..
I dont need anyone to approve of what i am doing neither, do i need someone to gossip to other ppl about what i am doing either.
If you have better things to do then concentrate on your own things and do it good before you have the ability to gossips.
Leave me ouuta your conversations.
I dont need anymore advertising. THANKS!

ps: i'll be mixing post about real life and emo posts to balance out the blog. LOL. so not to give human beings chance to think that im a lowly life who only know how to emo. but actually i dont give a damn! i'll do whatever i deem like. you dont like? dont read den. :)

2009-08-22T06:37:00.004+08:00

just came back from a mahjong session!

OMG!! damn shag and tired la.

and the result of this tiredness is that i only lost $1.

like WTF?! okay. maybe im abit pro. abit only ah!

AND btw, seem like people like to read my emo posts wor.

Maybe i should post more to let them comment

Or maybe i should post more of my happy post to let them know im living quite well alone now without their sacastism.

HMMM...

i think i deserve to be all alone myself to avoid those sacastism and ignorance of the human beings around.

ps: if you dontknow what going on in my life or how contented i am being myself den stop trying

to console me in msn. i dont need your sympathy or sacarstic remarks to make my life happier.

psps: if you are my friends den dont speak a words cos i would be heartbroken, if you are not my friends i think you shouldn't even speak cos i cannot be bothered with you.

2009-08-21T01:08:00.002+08:00

FML.
leave me alone for awhile or maybe even longer.
its me who makes things end up this way.
there no one i can blame except for myself.
its karma.

have you ever felt so sad and cried so much that you feel like vomitting

have you ever felt so sad that you stop everything you are doing and stare at blank space

have you ever felt that your heart ache so much that you barely could breathe

dying.

2009-08-20T21:40:00.001+08:00

was at school today for the last lesson of this module.
so freaking fast can?
den final exam is on 3rd sept lo.
2 weeks later.
:(

den came home and accompany mummy to go down and pray pray.
and burn the papers for the "good brothers"

after home sweet home, bathe and nap.

2009-08-20T00:56:00.002+08:00

haven been talking much about my personal life basically cos its too boring.
i might bore the hell outta you guys.
its school, school and more schools. ROARS!

oh. i have change my hp number and only gave to special friends only.
so if you dont have, you can try asking me for it.
i either forget or missed you out.
if i dont give den too bad. :)

2009-08-18T23:28:00.003+08:00

天忽冷忽热,

城市宁静而喧哗,

然而我的心是孤独的.

最近的日子我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗?

没有你, 每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗?

是不是也在思念里挣扎
忙碌吗?累吗?心还会痛吗?
如果真的不得已经忘了我,
那你就向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
你给的问候比陌生人还尴尬

这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗?

adapted from 你最近还好吗 by S.H.E

ps: no new photos taken recently cos been thinking about alot of stuffs. so no mood. period.

2009-08-17T23:18:00.003+08:00

was browsing thru the net last night.

and saw this couple of portraits photos taken by some photographer.

im seriously sorry that i dont remember the photographer name.

but i had always like portraits and scenery photos.

i feel that taking portraits is the most difficult

because we have to capture the object expressions at the right moment so that those whoever is looking at the photos will feel the exact expressions.

im still into photography at the moment but im lousy. LOL.

2009-08-16T22:54:00.002+08:00

was out with the family for family day today.
typical sunday outing.
super sians.
went to suntec city. actually wanna go to the toy and comic fair de.
but apparently, daddy and mummy has no interest and me and sis 2 person go damn bored. so we forget abt the idea and went shopping.
:):):) mummy sponsor me a shorts from cotton on!
their shorts is so comfy la. fell in love with it immediately.

after that we went to parkway parade for grocery shopping. (-_-)
den dinner and home sweet home.

i think i should start a new resolution of sleeping early.
cos i've been sleeping super late when i have to wake up early for school the next day.
its been unhealthy cos i cant seem to concentrate in class.

2009-08-16T02:55:00.007+08:00

i have been pondering about this for a few weeks already.
whether i needs a good friend who is always there for me and im always there for her but we need not contact much cos we still have our commitment to do.
or whether i needs a tons of friends who needs alot of contacts and talk unproductive things and when you are busy with your commitment. they will disappear from your life. and pretend to never know you at all?

i would prefer the first one though.
cos thats life. i mean friend have to understand that everyone has their own commitment to make.
only true friends understand and accept you for who you are.
not those who gossip small little things behind my back and pretend that i never even existed when im busy.

just a food for thought.
cos its hard to find true friends and if they ever comes along.
im so gonna treasure them. :)

2009-08-15T05:49:00.005+08:00

started off the day in school the whole freaking day.
becoming zombie soon.
but was glad that i finish my test and got a guts feeling that i will ace it. :)

after night lesson, i rush down to meet amelia for her BIRTHDAY!!
met edwin at the train station first and talked awhile.
so we are going to this boutique KTV place called the "SUITES"
quite class and good service though.

the interior decor was nice and classy.
BUT its freaking cold la.
lucky they provide us w blankets.
like how nice la. which KTV place provide us w blankets de?!!
tell me tell me.
LOL.

i wonder why kaka didi sing song must last fingers stick out de?!

maybe make him sing nicer or what? LOL.

ELF and me!

canto canto disco disco! LOL.

he was happy that day cos his chiobu sms him. -_-

chel darling.

she is abit emo that day but everything is fine. :)

and LASTLY, my beloved amelia aka birthday girl of the day.

very long nv see her due to school.

so happy to see her again. :) woohoo!

but i left ard 12 plus 1 i think.

cos of some personal reasons. LOL.

barely sang a song or drank a drink cos too much thing weighing on me.

since im not feeling well as well den went home lo. -_-

had a great day overall cos i've been productive.

i took my test, learn new hands skills in class and seen friends whom i nv seen for a very long time. :)

ps: pardon me for the bad lighting pics. cos i hate flash cos its enlarge and optimize every flaws. :)

2009-08-14T00:57:00.002+08:00

this pic of me is so so so like some small girls taking from a high angle la.

lemme assure you guys im not okay?!

just posted this pic for the fun and laughter of it.

i think im dying from the stress of schools and family.

that i just need nobody but myself.

and i trust nobody including myself too.

i just feel that i shld put my attention to whatever is worth it but i cant find something or someone who is worth it.

its the first time in my life, i feel like sleeping my day away.

i always regards sleeping as waste of time.

but now, i just wanna hide in my blanket and cry out loud and maybe scream or something.

the level of stress and emotions is suffocating.

i dont meant to post sucha emotional post but den again, its my blog.

so yeah. peace all~

2009-08-13T02:14:00.002+08:00

im being very emotional for this couple of days or rather couple of weeks.
im really sorry to those i have affected with my lousy attitude.
but im blogging this up cos im starting to get afraid.
i have no idea why am i lidat.
cos there is nothing wrong with my life at all.
i just keep picking all the unwanted worries and worry about.
i know its unhealthy but i cant help it.
i feel trapped in my own emotions and thoughts.
and im getting scare.

hope this lousy feeling will go away soon.

2009-08-13T00:04:00.005+08:00

had a super long day in school today.
morning and night class together.
i super hate monday, wednesday and friday la.
used up all my brain cells only.
but to be frank, its fun la.

okay. gotta get back to my books already.
friday is class test le.
like so freaking fast lo.
24 hrs is definitely not enough. gimme 28 hrs per day pls pls..

happy mugging to myself. :)

2009-08-12T02:26:00.010+08:00

just watched hannah montana online.
i know im slow guys. but i just wanna note down how i felt about this show.
its an inspiring show.
its true that you cant get the best outta of both worlds.
life is never smooth.
you just have to get over the bed of roses

the struggle of life.

the chances that life has given you but you either missed it or ignore it.

the wrong decisions. the lies.

it all happen to me before thay why its touches my heart.

like miley, hannah used to be her darkest secrets.

for me, my darkest secrets would be my past.

its not i dont wanna share, its im afraid of losing everything, like how miley is afraid of losing her chances of singing if she would admit.

i admire miley courage for doing things she deem right.

but as for me, im never confident in myself.

i dont know whether the decision i made was right.

i dont even trust myself.

but when you realise that everyone supports whatever decision you made and are all around you.

its just make the world seems better.

i had always like to hear the song the climb - miley cyrus.
plainly because i like the rhythm and lyrics.
but not much feel for it until i watch this movie and get what the songs is trying to protray.

the songs now officially gave me courage to take each day in stride and cherish every single things and person that appear in my life. :)

2009-08-11T20:23:00.002+08:00

dont have new pic to post today cos i freaking forgot to bring my camera to school so yeah.
school was a drag today.
alright. cant blog much cos classtest and classworks is piling up like mountain already.
and i suppose no one read my blog except me. so i "happy" can le. :)

2009-08-10T22:33:00.003+08:00

i had a super long weekends. OMG la.
freaking shagged now. LOL.
i'll just post a few pic i took over the weekends and i have tons of overdue pics lo.
:)

had a nice weekends overall.
although its busy but its fufiling.
and i love it. :)
but im fucking poor now. no part time work, got school.
omg la. im becoming a mummy soon with all the maggi mee.
lucky i have some good fren bring me out for food. LOL.
:) but im still a poor yet happy girl. lala~

lastly, i'll end with a pic of me as usual. :)

2009-08-09T03:50:00.003+08:00

fucking tired today. (pardon me for the vulagarity)
was out since afternoon and went to attend a malay couple wedding.
shall not elaborate much cos i was to upload the photos of the wedding in the next post i suppose. now too freaking tired to do that le.
this is just a space to book the timing for today and i'll blogged abt EVERYTHING tml.
check back for updates alright.
okay. sleepyworm is eating me up le. nights all~

ps: pics is up. :)

setting for the wedding is orange and white la.
btw, oramge is declare as my favorite colors as for now. LOL.

the wedding cake for the newlywed. how sweet right?

very princessy feel. i like.

the chairs for the newlyweds. looks pretty hor.

wonder why chinese wedding not so glam and cosy.. hmmm..

the newlyweds (fauzilah and salleh) cutting the cakes.

so pretty and glam they are lo.

and they are emitting a kind of happiness that is contagious to everyone.

after the wedding dinner, i went to galare and had waffle icecream.

pardon for the half eaten waffle pic cos i only took the pic when i realise the waffle is super addictive and nice!

2009-08-08T03:40:00.002+08:00

had a super long day today.
went to school for a morning class.

den after that go ajinsen for lunch.
i had spicy seafood ramen.
and "he" treat me de okay? LOL.

mac de seaweed fries is super nice.
im so addicted to it. slurps.
looking at the fries pic makes me crave for it again.

nerdy me in school when wearing specs.
LOL.
pardon me for the short entries.
the pic will replace my words alright?

2009-08-06T21:14:00.003+08:00

as you all can see. my swollen lips is almost healed already. cant see right?
the module im studying now is getting more and more interesting already.
loads of calculations and formula. and i love calculations and formula. :)
nothing much happen in school just that i found out my school has alot.
and i mean ALOT of cute guys. LOL.
im not "hua chi" alright? but nice things are meant to be admire de ma.

den after school today went to SGH and meet mummy for her appointment.
and after that she dropped by her friends house and chit chat.
and now im finally home, showered and slacking.

ps: something freaking wrong w my connection or lappy. im freaking pissed la. NBTT.

2009-08-06T00:33:00.003+08:00

today is school day.

and naturally its a boring day.

today was some maths calculation class.

and i happens not to know how to solve the problems.

so i ask my friends next to me.

and HE says "aiya! you so stupid den dont study la." in a irritated tone.

den i shouted back "shut up la fucker! i dont know how to do doesnt mean i stupid okay?"

i was fucking pissed la. nabei terter.

day was boring and tired.

2009-08-04T22:45:00.007+08:00

was on the way to school today.
its like a super slow day today lo.
cant wake up, fall asleep in class and class seems super boring.

(my phone, classmate's phone and car keys)

(HELLO KITTY!!!)

went home straight after class cos wanna bring me mummy to see doctor.
but fickle minded mummy say thurs den go see. -_-
"mummy! can make up your mind anot?"
(my mum reads my blog so yeah)

den since she never go see doc and im so freaking tired. i fell asleep from 6 all the way to 10.
LOL. i know im lazy la. but really very tired.
can someone bring me out and spice up my life?
its getting boring.

2009-08-03T23:31:00.002+08:00

LOL. look at my lecturer. the head so shining hor? (i know im being childish)
i was being random in my new module today.
which is the casino operations and management.
sound difficult but lecturer assure us that its going to be a easy subject compare to last module.
there is a few new classmates in the class. and a couple of them looks cute la. LOL.
den school ends at 3 den i got hand skills lesson at 7. (-_-)

den went home and slept awhile before heading back to school.
the stupid nap makes me even more tired la. wtf?!
went back to school and this few lessons we are learning how to deal already.
so now im dealing properly. but forgetting small details here and there la. LOL.
class is getting interesting when i know more friends. :)

ending off with a super tired face of mine.
(i know you guys are sick of my face already but its my blog so must have my face. LOL)

2009-08-02T23:09:00.003+08:00

(look at the swollen and scarred lips.)

today went out w family.
same old things. buy grocery for the week and walk around.
i bought the jap curry and imma so gonna cook it next week.
but i stayed in the car most of the times cos i legs freaking hurt and swollen.

as for my dinner tonight.
we had steamboat. :)
just a normal steamboat. nothing fascinating.
but its great to be able to go out w my famile with everyone around.

(look at the super big mess in front of me la.)

(i ate a whole big bowl of lala. woohoo!)

lastly, ending off w a pic of mine w swollen lip. GRRR!

i look damn ugly with that lip la. how to go school?!

ps: next week is gonna to be very busy for me cos its a start of a new module and i still have my night class.
very very busy.

2009-08-01T22:07:00.003+08:00

its a long day or rather a weekends for me.
went to suntec w classmates for the marinabaysands recruitment.
seriously, waste of time.
just submit application forms nia.
i can do it online also. -_-
make me sleep lesser la. NBTT!!
is amelia darling the only one reading my blog like seriously cos she is the only one who has been tagging me lo. GRRR! (thanks darling)

and hor and hor!!
i fall down la.
now i gt a bruise kneecaps and shin. and torn lips that is bleeding like mad. (now stop le la)
so im officially a handicapped le la.
many problems leh me! zzz. -_-

2009-07-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

(i know this photo tak glam. i dont care!)

im so so so dead for my exam today la.
you guys know what?
my exam starts from 1230 to 300.
when the clock ticks to 1230 and the invigilator says "you can start now."
i start to feel a super urgent. i need to go toilet.
so i thought nvm. tahan awhile. finish MCQ den go.
den after finish MCQ den i ask him whether i can go toilet anot.
den he said "you have to hand in your papers before you can go."
im like -_-. im so dead la.
den i quickly finish the whole papers within 1 hr.
(mind you! its 10MCQ, 5shortans and 4essays)
den i chiong to toilet le.
i did write down every single things i can remember.
but you guys know de la. when its high tide how to think properly?!
im so so so dead la.

2009-07-30T00:01:00.005+08:00

woke up around 3 today and my neck hurts like mad.
think i sprain it while sleeping ba.
like wtf la?! pain till im seeing stars and feel like dying lo.
the whole stretch of my right neck hurts and whenever i uses my right hands. i feel pain.
haiz. den went to school with the pain in my neck.

today was basic hand skills and lecturer teaches us the real technique how to play carribean stud poker.
and ask everyone of us to try out to be dealer for him.
(but im in pain how to distribute cards?!)
luckily when its my turn, lecturer says "end of lesson, keep the chips and cards."
lucky me. phew..

tml is my exam.
bless my neck would be alright tml.
while im typing this, my neck is still slant to the left side. like some retard la. GRRR!

ps: neck hurts but ignore the mess behind me. LOL.

2009-07-29T01:21:00.000+08:00

Take a lifetime to find love, or seize a moment for passion? I think im the latter.
Alot of times, true love doesnt comes till the later part of your life.
And along the way, you met many people whom gave you your memories
And made and prepare you for the "true love"
Many people says i rather to meet my true love and avoid going through all the bad relationship.
But hey, think about it. Its all the obstacles and falls that made you sucha a person now.
Dont whine about what you have gone through.
Instead, be glad what you have learn along the way.

2009-07-28T23:21:00.002+08:00

had been studying at home the whole freaking day la.
memory really super full le. how?!
den went out for dinner at tampines during evening time.
its a break for me to break away from my books. :)

god bless me to memorise more things.
life has been boring recently so got nothing much to blog about. :)

2009-07-28T00:39:00.002+08:00

thru my life experience tells me that alot of things comes and go.
like for example friends.
one moment they are there for you and the next they might be with another one.
if you ever needed them, they are not around.
when you get over the fact that they are not around, they came back again!
i mean what the point?

people in my life comes and goes like passerby.
i already know how to deal with it since i was 16.
but still it quite demoralising to know about it sometimes.

ps: this entry is not talking about anyone in particular.

2009-07-27T23:31:00.003+08:00

was playing around with my camera before i left for school today.

SAMSUNG camera seriously sucks la. LOL.

this is how my classrooms table looks like. LOL.

like some illegal gambling den hor? :)

school was freaking cold today and im shivering and my hands was shaking.

and lecturer keep asking me how come my hands are shivering.

den i said "no! im not the shivering. the table and the cards is shivering."

(i know not funny. -_-)

ps: im so worried about my final exam already la.

counting down to exam is 2 days.

ending off my entry with a pic w me and my beloved ELF. LOL.

2009-07-27T16:48:00.003+08:00

had been studying at home the whole day.
aiya. my memory full le la.
cannot fit in more things le. ZZZ!
help ah..

see the whole house so freaking dark la.
im heading to school soon for practical lesson.
hope that i wont get "wet" alright? LOL.
blog tonight when i get home. :)

2009-07-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

went out w family today and walk around and shop around.
sunday is stagnant for me. BOOHOO!

this is mummy and me.
my mummy super cute de hor. MUACKS HER!!

Sambal stingray,

Kailan,

and bittergourds for dinner.

that a simple dinner for the day. LOL.

tat all i guess.

gotta start studying for exam already.

wish me luck alright?

2009-07-25T21:51:00.003+08:00

was at home the whole day.
woke up around 5 plus i think.

life has been boring.
and i was sad to know that my best friends invite some of her friends to her bdae celebration.
but i knew nothing of it.
and my blog is seriously getting stagnant.
tagboards is quiet. LOL.
whatever izzit. i still have to move on.

2009-07-25T04:34:00.005+08:00

watched harry potter after my class today at PS.
always like golden village cos safra card members have discount!! LOL. (i know im stingy okay?!)
harry potter is a nice show. somewhat similiar to what i read in the book.
not much important parts of the books was cut away though they simplify it.
and this movie of HP, i realise there is more emotions scene rather den actions. which is something NEW!

actually after the movie, i have programs to meet my classmates at "nana".
but UNFORTUNATELY, he was drunk before i could go down and find him. (what an ass!)
so i went for some food and saw some old colleagues.

HOME SWEET HOME now. :)

ps: im feeling body ache all over me now. i predict im going to fall sick soon. god bless me pls..

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2009-07-23T20:47:00.002+08:00

spend the whole day at home today.
watched alot of CSIs at home on my parent's comfy bed.
and sis came home and ordered pizza.

its a boring day.
kill me pls.

2009-07-23T01:08:00.004+08:00

today had my basic hand skills 2nd lesson.
keep doing the same things lo.
nothing much.
just that the room was freaking cold and i was shivering inside.
was playing gunbound when i return home.
going to do my reports after this.
and settle it once and for all. BOO!
this reports is taking up too much time of mine.
so yeah. :)

PS: im so jealous at the 梁小明 for buying LUMIX LX3 la. GRRR!
bendan. you better let me play w ur camera.

2009-07-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

my right hand freaking hurts la!
i been practising my basic hand skills at home and i didnt know that becoming a dealer would be so DIFFICULT.
and my short and fat fingers are hindering my progress. ROARS!
tml night is another lesson of hand skills and im afriad of going school already. BOOHOO!

life recently have taken a toll on me.
friends, relationship, family and studies.
i only have 24 hrs/day. where got enough time to handle everything?
why doesnt private school have school holiday? HMMM...

2009-07-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

its a long day in school today.
went for classes at 12-3.
den after that went to macdonalds with classmates to finish up the report.
den went pool w them awhile.
den back to school from 7-10 for the basic hand skills lesson..

night classes was practical.
we had to hold chips in stack of 20 without counting. (zzz!)
den we have to pick them up in the correct way and seperate them into 4 0r 5 in the correct ways.
now my fingers and arms is hurting like mad la.
whole body aching also. LOL.

2009-07-19T22:45:00.002+08:00

today went out w family to tampines giant.
GIANT is super big at tampines la.
i wanna complain and whine, walk until i leg pain.
boo!

den after go see doctor,
den dinner at bedok. had some stingray and vege.

tml is gonna be a long day at school.
im afraid i'll fall asleep. LOL.

2009-07-19T01:44:00.007+08:00

LUMIX LX3

OLYMPUS E-P1

right now i thinking abt which camera shld i get.

E-P1 is something between a SLR and a compact camera.

LX3 i dont know much abt it.

only that a couple of friends use it and i love the photos taken.

can someone decide for me and get for me plss...

LOL.

2009-07-19T01:09:00.002+08:00

its a saturday today.
and its amazing im at home. LOL.
have been out the whole weekdays for school.
feeling like staying at home today.
its a good feeling.
feel calm and i think saturday shld be an official rest at home day.
(think if my mum sees this, she will MUACKS me de lo)

have been playing online games and watching show.
nothing much.
im bored. HELP!

2009-07-18T03:21:00.004+08:00

had a lousy day today.
never in my 21+yrs life i felt so injustified and embarassed la.
i knew its nobody fault. it might be mine.
but there is always a nicer way not to make this whole situation so awkward one.
GRRRR!

LOLS. class was normal today.
finish all the chapters.
and next monday would be the last lesson for this module.
its like so freaking fast la.
i barely started school for a month and im almost finishing a module already.
and final exams for this module is coming like right smack on the last day of july.
WOOHOO! im so freaking uptight about it.

2009-07-17T00:46:00.002+08:00

have been playing gunbound lo.
OMG!! its so boring la.

im downloading new games to play. :)
how interesting izzit?! LOL. im excited abt new games.
but im not a gaming freak okay? boo!

okay im bored.
nothing to talk abt recently.
and i dont like to make my blog a super emotional one.
so i rather not talk too much about my emotions right.

but it seems like no one is reading my blog anyway.

2009-07-16T00:53:00.003+08:00

I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry
That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Baby sometimes love just aint enough.

Omokomok!! Its for the special someone.

2009-07-15T22:11:00.005+08:00

school is boring today.
fall asleep awhile in the class here and there.

i feel that my life is getting super stagnant now lo.
like there is nothing much i can do about it.
even though there is. im too tired to do anything about.

its not like im happy with what i have now but the things is, humans have to learn how to be contented isnt?
at least life is simple. (simple=plain&boring)

alot of times, i thought about leaving this world and go to somewhere all by myself.
perhap i would be happier lidat.
but i dont wanna disappoint anyone (if there is) who love me.

all i can say is im hanging on to what i have now. on the verge of slipping.

ps: its empty and painful here. *point to the heart*

2009-07-14T22:53:00.003+08:00

i had my test today.
and i think... i think i did GREAT!!
*hopefully~ cross fingers*

sidetrack:
sometimes i feel that life could be as wonderful as you wanna be.
if you were to be contented with what you have.
dont expect more, you'll be happy.
alot of things is cos we think we deserve better that why we expect more.
but who is to decide how much we deserve?

i have lose alot of things in life that i dont used to cherish and treasure.
cos i admit that i took them for granted.
now when i think back, i realise how much better i would have be as a person with them around.
but looking back is not going to work, i guess i just have to look forward and pave out the path myself.
and hopefully, the same mistake wont happen again.
and i'll be who i wanna be and what i can be.

ps: i feel trapped in a tiny box and im trying to work my ways out.

2009-07-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

you know what.
i dont care already.
im tired. and i'll see how it goes.

2009-07-13T22:27:00.006+08:00

this is so freaking cute la.
i muacks SUPERJUNIOR.
look at 30 sec that guy. ITS SUNGMIN!!
he's my love for so long la. like him alot since super junior debut.

and can some kind soul tell me who is the guy at 36 sec de?
he looks cute and style.

okay. enough of drooling over cute guys.
i better get back to my books.

2009-07-13T22:11:00.002+08:00

finally im back home.
freaking tired la. have been mugging like mad for the past 2 days.
GRRR!! i nv read books ever since i drop out of poly a few yrs ago lo.
now i feel that the memory space in my tiny little brain is so limited lo.
i can easily forget stuff i read 5 mins ago. HOW CAN?!

so family day on sunday was good.
cos i havent been going out w mummy for like 1month...?
i feel happy to see her smile and joke at least.
but cant take all this for granted.

having my test tml. and i dunno why am i so nervous.
maybe didnt take test for a very long time.
pray that i pass w flying colours alright?

2009-07-12T13:48:00.003+08:00

just woke up.
had a super lousy day yest.
all the screaming and yelling makes me feel that im abandon again.
but after i woke up. everything is fine.
sleeping calms me down alot.
alright. gotta go out in awhile for FAMILY DAY.

i better start revising for my test for tuesday.
i realise i only finish 2 chapters. left with 6 more to go..
will blog more when i come back. :)

2009-07-11T23:56:00.001+08:00

its the new alienware laptop.
OMG la. so chio right?
can some kind soul buy this laptop for me?
LOL. im joking alright? its freaking priced at $3999 - $4999 la.

think even if buy le. i also wont use lo.
so chio and expensive. might just leave it in the glass cabinet and let it rot and die.
LOL.