(i know this photo tak glam. i dont care!)

im so so so dead for my exam today la.
you guys know what?
my exam starts from 1230 to 300.
when the clock ticks to 1230 and the invigilator says "you can start now."
i start to feel a super urgent. i need to go toilet.
so i thought nvm. tahan awhile. finish MCQ den go.
den after finish MCQ den i ask him whether i can go toilet anot.
den he said "you have to hand in your papers before you can go."
im like -_-. im so dead la.
den i quickly finish the whole papers within 1 hr.
(mind you! its 10MCQ, 5shortans and 4essays)
den i chiong to toilet le.
i did write down every single things i can remember.
but you guys know de la. when its high tide how to think properly?!
im so so so dead la.

woke up around 3 today and my neck hurts like mad.
think i sprain it while sleeping ba.
like wtf la?! pain till im seeing stars and feel like dying lo.
the whole stretch of my right neck hurts and whenever i uses my right hands. i feel pain.
haiz. den went to school with the pain in my neck.

today was basic hand skills and lecturer teaches us the real technique how to play carribean stud poker.
and ask everyone of us to try out to be dealer for him.
(but im in pain how to distribute cards?!)
luckily when its my turn, lecturer says "end of lesson, keep the chips and cards."
lucky me. phew..

tml is my exam.
bless my neck would be alright tml.
while im typing this, my neck is still slant to the left side. like some retard la. GRRR!



ps: neck hurts but ignore the mess behind me. LOL.

Take a lifetime to find love, or seize a moment for passion? I think im the latter.
Alot of times, true love doesnt comes till the later part of your life.
And along the way, you met many people whom gave you your memories
And made and prepare you for the "true love"
Many people says i rather to meet my true love and avoid going through all the bad relationship.
But hey, think about it. Its all the obstacles and falls that made you sucha a person now.
Dont whine about what you have gone through.
Instead, be glad what you have learn along the way.

had been studying at home the whole freaking day la.
memory really super full le. how?!
den went out for dinner at tampines during evening time.
its a break for me to break away from my books. :)

god bless me to memorise more things.
life has been boring recently so got nothing much to blog about. :)

thru my life experience tells me that alot of things comes and go.
like for example friends.
one moment they are there for you and the next they might be with another one.
if you ever needed them, they are not around.
when you get over the fact that they are not around, they came back again!
i mean what the point?

people in my life comes and goes like passerby.
i already know how to deal with it since i was 16.
but still it quite demoralising to know about it sometimes.

ps: this entry is not talking about anyone in particular.

had been studying at home the whole day.
aiya. my memory full le la.
cannot fit in more things le. ZZZ!
help ah..



see the whole house so freaking dark la.
im heading to school soon for practical lesson.
hope that i wont get "wet" alright? LOL.
blog tonight when i get home. :)

went out w family today and walk around and shop around.
sunday is stagnant for me. BOOHOO!



this is mummy and me.
my mummy super cute de hor. MUACKS HER!!

was at home the whole day.
woke up around 5 plus i think.

life has been boring.
and i was sad to know that my best friends invite some of her friends to her bdae celebration.
but i knew nothing of it.
and my blog is seriously getting stagnant.
tagboards is quiet. LOL.
whatever izzit. i still have to move on.

watched harry potter after my class today at PS.
always like golden village cos safra card members have discount!! LOL. (i know im stingy okay?!)
harry potter is a nice show. somewhat similiar to what i read in the book.
not much important parts of the books was cut away though they simplify it.
and this movie of HP, i realise there is more emotions scene rather den actions. which is something NEW!

actually after the movie, i have programs to meet my classmates at "nana".
but UNFORTUNATELY, he was drunk before i could go down and find him. (what an ass!)
so i went for some food and saw some old colleagues.

HOME SWEET HOME now. :)

ps: im feeling body ache all over me now. i predict im going to fall sick soon. god bless me pls..

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psps: did this colourquiz a min ago and feel that its somewhat similiar to my character. try it out guys. interesting...

spend the whole day at home today.
watched alot of CSIs at home on my parent's comfy bed.
and sis came home and ordered pizza.

its a boring day.
kill me pls.

today had my basic hand skills 2nd lesson.
keep doing the same things lo.
nothing much.
just that the room was freaking cold and i was shivering inside.
was playing gunbound when i return home.
going to do my reports after this.
and settle it once and for all. BOO!
this reports is taking up too much time of mine.
so yeah. :)

PS: im so jealous at the 梁小明 for buying LUMIX LX3 la. GRRR!
bendan. you better let me play w ur camera.

my right hand freaking hurts la!
i been practising my basic hand skills at home and i didnt know that becoming a dealer would be so DIFFICULT.
and my short and fat fingers are hindering my progress. ROARS!
tml night is another lesson of hand skills and im afriad of going school already. BOOHOO!

life recently have taken a toll on me.
friends, relationship, family and studies.
i only have 24 hrs/day. where got enough time to handle everything?
why doesnt private school have school holiday? HMMM...

its a long day in school today.
went for classes at 12-3.
den after that went to macdonalds with classmates to finish up the report.
den went pool w them awhile.
den back to school from 7-10 for the basic hand skills lesson..

night classes was practical.
we had to hold chips in stack of 20 without counting. (zzz!)
den we have to pick them up in the correct way and seperate them into 4 0r 5 in the correct ways.
now my fingers and arms is hurting like mad la.
whole body aching also. LOL.

today went out w family to tampines giant.
GIANT is super big at tampines la.
i wanna complain and whine, walk until i leg pain.
boo!

den after go see doctor,
den dinner at bedok. had some stingray and vege.

tml is gonna be a long day at school.
im afraid i'll fall asleep. LOL.

LUMIX LX3

its a saturday today.
and its amazing im at home. LOL.
have been out the whole weekdays for school.
feeling like staying at home today.
its a good feeling.
feel calm and i think saturday shld be an official rest at home day.
(think if my mum sees this, she will MUACKS me de lo)

have been playing online games and watching show.
nothing much.
im bored. HELP!

had a lousy day today.
never in my 21+yrs life i felt so injustified and embarassed la.
i knew its nobody fault. it might be mine.
but there is always a nicer way not to make this whole situation so awkward one.
GRRRR!



LOLS. class was normal today.
finish all the chapters.
and next monday would be the last lesson for this module.
its like so freaking fast la.
i barely started school for a month and im almost finishing a module already.
and final exams for this module is coming like right smack on the last day of july.
WOOHOO! im so freaking uptight about it.

have been playing gunbound lo.
OMG!! its so boring la.

im downloading new games to play. :)
how interesting izzit?! LOL. im excited abt new games.
but im not a gaming freak okay? boo!

okay im bored.
nothing to talk abt recently.
and i dont like to make my blog a super emotional one.
so i rather not talk too much about my emotions right.

but it seems like no one is reading my blog anyway.

I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry
That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Baby sometimes love just aint enough.

Omokomok!! Its for the special someone.

school is boring today.
fall asleep awhile in the class here and there.

i feel that my life is getting super stagnant now lo.
like there is nothing much i can do about it.
even though there is. im too tired to do anything about.

its not like im happy with what i have now but the things is, humans have to learn how to be contented isnt?
at least life is simple. (simple=plain&boring)

alot of times, i thought about leaving this world and go to somewhere all by myself.
perhap i would be happier lidat.
but i dont wanna disappoint anyone (if there is) who love me.

all i can say is im hanging on to what i have now. on the verge of slipping.

ps: its empty and painful here. *point to the heart*

i had my test today.
and i think... i think i did GREAT!!
*hopefully~ cross fingers*

sidetrack:
sometimes i feel that life could be as wonderful as you wanna be.
if you were to be contented with what you have.
dont expect more, you'll be happy.
alot of things is cos we think we deserve better that why we expect more.
but who is to decide how much we deserve?

i have lose alot of things in life that i dont used to cherish and treasure.
cos i admit that i took them for granted.
now when i think back, i realise how much better i would have be as a person with them around.
but looking back is not going to work, i guess i just have to look forward and pave out the path myself.
and hopefully, the same mistake wont happen again.
and i'll be who i wanna be and what i can be.

ps: i feel trapped in a tiny box and im trying to work my ways out.

you know what.
i dont care already.
im tired. and i'll see how it goes.

this is so freaking cute la.
i muacks SUPERJUNIOR.
look at 30 sec that guy. ITS SUNGMIN!!
he's my love for so long la. like him alot since super junior debut.

and can some kind soul tell me who is the guy at 36 sec de?
he looks cute and style.

okay. enough of drooling over cute guys.
i better get back to my books.

finally im back home.
freaking tired la. have been mugging like mad for the past 2 days.
GRRR!! i nv read books ever since i drop out of poly a few yrs ago lo.
now i feel that the memory space in my tiny little brain is so limited lo.
i can easily forget stuff i read 5 mins ago. HOW CAN?!

so family day on sunday was good.
cos i havent been going out w mummy for like 1month...?
i feel happy to see her smile and joke at least.
but cant take all this for granted.

having my test tml. and i dunno why am i so nervous.
maybe didnt take test for a very long time.
pray that i pass w flying colours alright?

its the new alienware laptop.
OMG la. so chio right?
can some kind soul buy this laptop for me?
LOL. im joking alright? its freaking priced at $3999 - $4999 la.

think even if buy le. i also wont use lo.
so chio and expensive. might just leave it in the glass cabinet and let it rot and die.
LOL.

alot of things is unspoken.
i care but i dont need to let you know i care.
i want you to be happy. but i dont wanna you to know that im not happy making u happy sometimes.
i just wanna keep the friendship between us.
im really afraid of losing it.

alot of things is not forever.
but at least i want to do something to make it last longer.
it might be the wishful thinking on my side.
but i really hope our friendship can last as long as possible.

i dont know where went wrong that makes us turn out lidat.
i just hope that everything would be okay after awhile.
cos i believe i cant find someone who would be the same as you.

ps: its friendship not relationship okay?

sidetrack:
i've been eating so much maggi mee recently that i think im turning into a egypt mummy soon.
GRRR! i need normal food soon. but im too broke to enjoy them. LOL.

its a brand new blog with a brand new me
seriously i have started 10 over blogs since young and nv sustain them at all.
i wonder why.
now im determined to keep this one and make it last as long as possible.