Perhaps if its all real and i dont need to wake up.

I want to be happy and worry-free.

But waking up from dreams brings me back to reality.

And i realise how vulnerable i am.

Muhaha. Did you guys know the fact i alway do direct translations?

For example, people mountain people sea, angry die me. =x

Apparently, this supermarket has a higher sense of direct translation than me. :)

apparently, accident do happen sometimes. :) LOL

If i tell you nothing can make me happy, would you believe?

If i tell you i lost my goal, would you believe?

If i tell you nothing is important to me, would you believe me?

I lost all my motivations, goals/dreams, reasons for living.

I need to find back my momentum.

I need to be motivated. :)

Today was a very memorable day.

Not for something happy. But something devastating.

I was rejected from marinabaysands casino because i couldn't get the license from CRA.

It was because of something bad that i used to do, my tattoo??

I don't know. They never explain.

All they do is send me an email saying i was rejected.

All my hopes to turn better and have a bright future is all crashed in this email.

The world felt as if it fall on me.

My road became so dark that i could no longer walk anymore.

What should i do?

I studied casino management because this is my dream.

Now that i could no longer work in this industry.

I don't know what else am i supposed to do.

为什么连想念都会这么难?

没人了解我.

大家只会对我说 " 很快就过去".

我讨厌看到你受委屈.

我讨厌看到你被占便宜.

我讨厌看到你开心.

而我更讨厌看到你伤心.

Its so contradicting that i could literally feel my heart tearing apart.

我要你过得快乐, 可是我嫉妒你比我快乐.

我不想你伤心, 因为我不忍心看见你的眼泪.

好辛苦, 觉得心好像被撕裂.

我以为没有你我回过的好好的.

我以为地球会继续转动,

太阳会继续升起,

水会继续流动.

可是, 我现在的生活是绕着你转动.

世界突然变的黑白.

Was watching this show the other day.

Just finish it 2 days ago.

It talking about the fame, behind-the-scenes, drugs for entertainment industry.

There was this lady who would do anything to get her consecutive actress of the year awards.

She did alot of sinful things, killing people to ensure her 1st place in the industry.

Last straw, she tried to kill the girl who has very high chance to win the awards but yet, she fall off the rooftop.

And when they announce the winner, its HER!

But she has became bedridden and could no longer film anymore nice shows and her award to her is pretty useless.

It make me start to think.

What the point of being so competitive and sacrifice many people for something you want.

Is it really worth it in the end?

I see people quarreling every other day.

I dont understand what is the hoohaa!

Even if u win, SO!?

Just a penny for the thought cos i got nothing to blog recently.

Its 2010 and 1 day has passed.

I didnt accomplish anything on this day except to nua whole day and think of my plans for my future.

Future looks bright enough and im brave enough to walk each steps with grace and confident.

Nothing seems too difficult.

I even manage to go back to study. :)

Life has been tolerant to me.

It has gave me several chances to make it right.

Im so glad because not many people have the oppotunities to be in my shoes today after what i have been through.

Im thankful for my family.
Although i did not tell them.

But deeo down, they forgive alot of wrong things that i have done.

And gave me chances again and again for me to be what they expect although i have failed them again and again.

If its not for them, i wouldnt be where i am today.

I would jolly well be still loitering on the streets like some other juveniles.

I would cherish every chances that comes by because i believe.....

Chances and opportunity are for those who are ready. :)

Cheers guy. Have a good year ahead.

Cos i know i will be enjoying 2010. :)